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06122018 twin?

Bismillah. 


Alhamdulillah i was confirmed with normal pregnancy and i was able to continue work as usual.
At that time my symptoms are still undercontrol.

I thought i was strong.
Looking back at my timetable.
my offday will be on the first day of the week and the next offday will be on the end of the day of the next week.

it will be my supertiring phase.
but what can i do?
i still have to do double oncalls.
still have to go through long days.

eventhough i was so tired.
i cried everytime i go back from work.
i cannot go through this anymore.
i almost fainted in the ward.
i was given iv drip with branula.

and nobody will understand how it feels.
with two weeks straight of working, few days before weekend, i even cannot finish my reviews writing because it was super tiring. then, at the end of the weekend i was having

per vaginal bleeding.

at first, i ignore since it was just staining. then, im having it again.
my husband at that time have to go for oncall.

it was quite sad, when your husband coundnt be with you at that time.
meanwhile he was attending other patients.

but i still redha.
as i thought, this is my jihad. 
Allah tested us because He knew we can. 

But still, the pv bleed disturbed me.
Then i decided to go to PAC accompanied by my mom's helper. 

(my husband worked at PAC and labour room. Hospital Segamat's PAC and labour room are combined)

the MO scanned me. i waited patiently for my turn as long as my baby is safe.
then she scanned me

"look, there's the heartbeat! your baby is safe"
" wait a second! areena ada keturunan twin ke?"

"Ada dr"
" did you see, there's ANOTHER HEARTBEAT!"
"oh my god, you are having twins areena!, Wait i called loqman"
it was quite funny when she was too excited until she left the TVS inside me. Haha. Sakit kot tapi sebab nk tunjuk jugak my husband ku relakan jua


she went out and called loqman to PAC to see the ultrasound
loqman arrived in the room

MO: loqman apa ni. nampak tak.

i smiled to him. but he still blur. sebab baru je masuk ONG. 

'bladder kan , dr"

HAHAHHAAHA. bladder? rasa nak tepuk je my husband masa tu.
obviously there is two heartbeats! i can see them clearly!

"taklaaaa. nampak tak ada dua hertbeat tu?"

"aah laa!"
he smiled widely. and i can feel if there's no one there, we will hug ourselves, crying.

he was so happy. rugi tak ambil gambar muka dia masa tu. 

"so loqman, congrats. you are having twins. Areena i give u mc for a week. please take care of yourself. jangan buat kerja berat berat"

then, i discharged happily.
i met my husband for a while dekat bilik assesment pac.
i hold his hand.

im glad im making him so happy with this news.
we are going to be twins parents!
Alhamdulillah.

NIKMAT TUHAN MANA YANG PERLU KAU DUSTAKAN.

Allahu. Rezeki yang tak dijangka.
aku semakin yakin nak bekerja. 

Abang, kerja elok elok. Sayang balik dulu. Jumpa esok dekat rumah :)

I love you abang.
I love you my babies.
i can smile in sleep. 




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